13.7.10

Fake Smiles Return Again

So I'm returning back to my life of fake smiles, because, yeah, you guessed it, he broke up with me. After having no contact with me for 48 hours, he texts me as if nothing had happened, but he wasn't acting the same. Even over text, I could tell something was up. He later told he that he didn't think we should go out. That's the message I woke up to this morning. What a lovely day it's going to be. I question him, asking him why he felt that. And he told me. "I don't want to be a secret to your parents" he says. And that really hurt. Sure, my parents didn't know we were together yet, but I don't tell my parents I'm in a relationship the second I get in one. I wait to make sure it isn't going to last like a week and then have to tell them we aren't. Then would come all the questionings about why and shit. I honestly don't want to put up with that, so yeah I wait a week or two before telling them. Is that really so wrong? When I tried to explain this to him, he said it was too late. Like, wow. You didn't even give it a chance! He said he was sorry, but I find that hard to believe, and I told him that. Although, I don't think that went over with him too well because he didn't reply.
So onto that world of fake smiles that I was so happy to leave before.

6 comments:

  1. Don't worry. You're not alone. I'm gonna be faking it too..

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  2. I love you(:
    Everything will be okay

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  3. Something happen?
    Did with me. Kody & I got back together.

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  4. Haha yeah, something did happen. Latosha and Sarah counts (a new friend) and I went to the mariot and played around in the sprinklers. It lifted my spirits to an extent to where I was honestly smiling.

    I haven't talk to Yellow since Tuesday.

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